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What’s Your Favorite Food?

On Monday night before going to bed, I sat there and thought to myself for a moment…. “I think I have an addiction…”.  My mind began wandering back to very early days in my childhood when I would be asked, “What’s Your Favorite Food, Marcia?”.  I never had an answer for anyone.  My mother would like to claim that my favorite food is Steak & Potatoes though.  (Love you Mom!)  As that is what she would typically end up telling people.

We’ve all had that question asked.  From MySpace & Facebook “All About Me” postings, surveys, questionnaires, etc.  But, let me ask you this.  Did you answer that question truthfully?  Or, did you just put something down that was tempting you at the moment?

Here’s what I was thinking before bed on Monday…..  I don’t have ONE specific food that I like.  I like THEM ALL!!  I like anything that tastes well, smells well, looks well and sits well.  I want it and I want it NOW!  That’s when it really hit me.  I am a FOOD ADDICT!

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I honestly have never been able to specify what my favorite food is.  I could tell you that I absolutely LOVE Mexican food (which I do), but honestly… I would eat the heck out of Cheesecake or Seafood just as passionately.  (Hmm… perhaps that’s a term I need to share with the therapist — Food = Passion.  Interesting what comes out here sometimes.)

Fast forward to Tuesday.  I’m on the computer scrolling through my Facebook posts like I typically do and there is a blog post from Ruby Gettinger (if you haven’t heard of Ruby — You need to go check her out!  She’s amazing!).  I click on it and start to read it.  It grabbed my attention as she starts to talk about how we become “Powerless to ______ ” (fill in the blank with whatever you feel powerless to).  Then, she encouraged me to take Step 2 and join her in getting some help.  I clicked on the link and was directed to The Recovery Room.

I really wasn’t sure what to think once I landed on the page for The Recovery Room, but something within me forced me to take the next step and e-mail the moderator to be added to the group.  I received my e-mail confirmation within a few minutes and before I knew it, I was attending a 3pm Overeaters Anonymous virtual meeting.

I decided early on in the session that I was not ready to “share” my story or talk about my issues.  So, I just hung back, listened and cheered on those who were so bravely sharing their trials and tribulations as Compulsive Eaters and Food Addicts.  My mind was racing and I swear the hair on my neck was standing straight up.  Every word that was typed across the screen from each member felt like it was coming straight out of my own mouth.  For once, I had found where I needed to be!

I have been telling my friends and family for several weeks now how I had this mental block that was preventing me from losing my weight and I just kept praying that I would eventually figure it out.  Am I going to have some remarkable weight-loss all of a sudden?  No, I’m not saying that.  What I am saying is that I have found a way to discuss my emotional and mental issues with the one thing that keeps me FAT besides my own self… FOOD!

Of course, this group doesn’t just sit and talk about food.  In fact, we aren’t even allowed to discuss a specific food or diet for fear that we may cause someone with an extreme food addiction to go into a rage of sorts.  We don’t want to be the reason to set them into a binge episode.  So, we just use very “vague” terms when discussing our food addictions.  Like, “I went to this specific restaurant and had a really hard time staying away from this specific meal that I had prepared myself to avoid”.  I loved how comforting and supportive everyone was within the group.  (Again, it’s all a virtual chat room.  So, it’s very easy to share, support and speak freely.  Especially when your screen name is “guest”.)

The most interesting thing I learned about OA is that they use the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book.  Yes, The 12 Step Program!  Because if you really think about it… it’s ADDICTION we are fighting!  The same “suggestions” (as the AABB is all suggestive and not a mandatory way of life) apply for ANY addict.  I’ve already downloaded my copy of the AABB and plan to read more of it throughout the next few weeks.  (It never occurred to me how similar a “binge drinker” and a “binge eater” were similar until I started reading…)

So all and all… I’m suggesting to YOU… my family, friends and fans.  If you are struggling with an addiction, a battle with yourself or are depressed about something that has happened in your life.  Get Help!  It does NOT make  you a weak person to admit when you need help.  In fact, it makes you STRONGER!  Come back ALIVE and LIVE the life you really want!  Get the help you need!  Because we want to see you around for a LONG time!

Sending you all ((hugs)) while you are tackling this journey to a healthy you and struggling with day-to-day battles within it.  I know personally that it is not easy, but we will make it through TOGETHER!  Stay Strong & Healthy!

 

About OA:

Overeaters Anonymous offers a program of recovery from compulsive eating using the Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of OA. Worldwide meetings and other tools provide a fellowship of experience, strength and hope where members respect one another’s anonymity. OA charges no dues or fees; it is self-supporting through member contributions.

OA is not just about weight loss, weight gain or maintenance, or obesity or diets. It addresses physical, emotional and spiritual well-being. It is not a religious organization and does not promote any particular diet.

OA members differ in many ways, but we are united by our common disease and the solution we have found in the OA program. We practice unity with diversity, and we welcome everyone who wants to stop eating compulsively. Welcome to Overeaters Anonymous. Welcome home.

 

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Don’t DERAIL on Valentine’s Day

valentine chocolate

Valentine’s Day is a perfect day to sabotage your Diet.  But, it doesn’t have to be!  By making a few adjustments and sticking to them, you can make sure you don’t derail on your New Year’s Resolution to lose weight.

1.)  Plan to Workout in the morning on Valentine’s Day.

2.)  Eat your normal meals throughout the day to ward off emotional eating, overeating or making a bad choice due to starvation mode.

3.)  Plan to cook a meal at home and lower the calorie count -OR- split a dinner with your mate at a restaurant.  Either way, you will be able to lower the amount of calories.

4.)  Get active!  Plan to go for a walk after dinner -OR-  Get Sexy! 😉

5.)  Ward off all Chocolate Candies!  It’s not worth it and they have WAYYY too many calories.  Instead, grab a piece of fruit or a hot chocolate.

Most of all, enjoy the day!  Because really, that’s all it is.  A DAY!  You can celebrate your love each and every day without chocolates and high fat meals.  Plan ahead and you will do just fine!

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As you learned in my Call 9-1-1….I have a FOOD COMA! post, this past week was not my best to date.  I had a couple of “cheat” moments that definitely lead me down a path of self-resentment for a few days.  Thankfully, I am back on track today!  Somewhat…. I’ll explain later.  For now, how about a little re-cap of last week?

Monday:  Boot Camp almost killed me this past week.  She made us RUN!  Did you hear me?  SHE MADE US RUN!!!  Ok, maybe she just made us run down the one side of the church to the dumpster and back — TWICE!  But still.  My body was screaming pretty loudly at 5:30am.  Sadly enough, I was also the slowest.  😦  I’m ok with that though.  I’m the big girl on campus…. for now!

Tuesday:  I took the day off.  Sat around in my PJ’s ALL DAY and played on my Kindle and watched TV.  It was great!  It was my first true “Pajama Day” since starting the new lifestyle.  Figured I owed it to myself (if only I had known what the rest of the week would have looked like).

Wednesday:  The day started off good with me waking up, loading up on apples and water and heading out for a Aerobic Dance class with our 62yo House Guest.  Boy, I was literally the YOUNGEST person in the gym filled with at least 50 over 50yo’s.  But hey, for $1, I’ll be going more often!  Well, after class is when the day went steadily downhill.  My driver (let’s call her “Canada” to protect her identity), she got a little turned around and we ended up in the wrong direction to her storage unit (we had a lot of errands this day).  So, our original plan to stop at a small soup and salad joint was busted.  We ended up walking into a Thai Restaurant instead.  Then, that night…. I had dinner with friends at the Ale House.  Again, see my Call 9-1-1….I have a FOOD COMA! post for more details.  I’ll just sum it up with this photo….

Alexander No Good Day

Thursday:  Besides beating myself up.  Thursday was another lay low day and I ate pretty decent.  Looking back, I wished I would have gotten off my A** this day and worked out.  But, you live and you learn.

Friday:  Uh yes!  Finally, I talked myself out of my depressive state.  Ha!  I headed to the gym (as I really wanted to sleep in and not get kicked back down at Boot Camp) and ran Day 1 of Week 1 of the Couch 2 5K program.  I also did my arms on the weight machines.  To reward myself, I went out to our local farm and purchased some veggies and had a nice quiet lunch with me, myself and I.  It was WONDERFUL!  =)  This really helped to lift my spirits.

Saturday & Sunday:  I didn’t do much in the terms of “working out” this weekend.  However, I did manage to finally clean off my desk in our extra room.  That desk has been piled with the past for the last 6 months.  I finally went through it all and trashed most of it.  I am now sitting here at a nice clean desk and able to have MY own space back in the house.  I’m in LOVE!  On Sunday, hubby and I went to our local farmers market.  Didn’t get anything; as I got so much on Friday.  However, it was nice to scope out the prices and see what they have available for next time.  I’ll definitely be back.  Afterwards, we headed to the grocery store and then to pick Strawberries!  YUM!  I have enough strawberries to get me through the week with my smoothies and just general snacking.  I should have got more, but there’s always NEXT weekend!  🙂

TODAY:  Ok, I have another confession.  On Saturday night, I decided to enjoy a small slice of a loaf cake that “Canada” had purchased at Fresh Market.  It had been staring me in the face all week.  Let’s just say, my body is NOT happy with it!  I’ve needed to be near a bathroom for the last 24 hours. (Sorry, TMI, I know.  Deal with it!  I’m only HUMAN!) I guess there is the slight possibility it could be a stomach virus, but I don’t think so.  I’m starting to figure myself out.  So, I had to skip Boot Camp again.  It was the last day of my pass today too.  😦  It’s ok.  I made a pact with myself.  Get down another 20 lbs and we can sign up for another round.  I think I’ll need it once I hit a plateau anyhow.  (Yes, I do talk to myself.  Don’t judge!)  In the meantime, I am going to train for my first 5K.  My husband and I are going to WALK one on February 9th.  The first big RUN 5K will be April 7th.  I’ve got PLENTY of time.  If I can tackle the 5K, I may even upgrade to the 10K at the race.  🙂  So, my plan today was Boot Camp.  That got blotched, then I decided to do the gym C25K program, that got blotched… so I just stayed around the house and walked 1.51 miles with the puppy instead.  I went strong for the first mile.  The last half, I had to slow it down a bit as my stomach was starting to shine its awful face at me.

The upside to having a stomach issue — Down 1.8 pounds on the scale in 24hrs!  HOLY F###!!  Why couldn’t I have weighed in at that yesterday??  Errr.  Oh well, this weeks weigh-in should be pretty decent.  Watch out girls!  😉  Currently, I am down a total of 12.8 pounds since January 2nd!!!  WOOT WOOT!!!  Enter Happy Dance….

Happy Dance

I’m going to leave you with a little quote I got while at Tory Johnson’s Spark & Hustle Business Conference last year.  It’s one of my favorites and it will be my theme this week.  Feel free to take it for yourself too!  Have a fabulous one!

Do Not Let Your Fire Go Out,
Spark By Irreplaceable Spark…
The World You Desire Can Be Won.
It Exists…. It Is Real… It Is Possible…. It Is YOURS.
~ Ayn Rand

The Break Down (Week of 1/21/13)

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Call 9-1-1 …. I have a FOOD COMA!

Dude… You got Dessert?!

So, yesterday started off on the right foot.  Our 62 yo housemate returned home this week.  (Long story, but she is here temporarily.  And, we LOVE having her around so it’s no big deal.)  She took me to her Aerobics class yesterday after talking me into it for months now.  For $1, I figured I’d give it a shot.

I arrived to a gym filled with grumpy men and anxious ladies all above 50 years old!  (Ha!)  Funniest part, the lady next to me tried to tell me that I was doing a move wrong at one point and ended up causing the entire line to run into each other.  Ha!  Serves her right!  (Just kidding!  I’m really not that mean!)  I was surprised at how I could get myself to sweat during an “extremely modified” aerobic session.  I guess all my years of Jazzercise helped me to accommodate pretty much any workout.  To say the least, I will return next week for $1 and to hang out with my fellow new 50+ friends.  (Bonus:  They have weight-lifting afterwards for FREE.  Woot Woot!)

After Aerobics, I agreed to help her with some items of importance.  Like getting paperwork from her storage unit and getting the contacts on her old phone transferred over to the new one.  (That’s a whole ‘nother subject.  I’ve been teaching her how to use a phone since Monday.  Of which, I told her NOT to get.  But anyhow… 62yo’s are like talking to Teenagers sometimes.  Geesh!)  Well, she ended up getting entirely turned around on the way to the storage facility.  So, the plan to eat at a nice Salad/Soup Restaurant went straight into the dumpster… and so did my diet.  The next turn was a THAI Restaurant!

It’s probably been a century since I have visited a Thai Restaurant.  I had no idea what to order and couldn’t think fast enough on my feet to plan for something low-fat/low-sodium/low-cal…etc.  I went with my GUT (and not figuratively) and ordered the Wide Pad Thai Noodles with Brown Gravy, Chicken and Broccoli.  Ya, I did post that I was only going to eat 1/2 of that plate.  Ya RIGHT!  I ate the whole damn thing!!  Can you blame me?!  I’ve been eating clean (veggies, fruits, meats, etc) for the last 22 days.  Set some “gravy” and rice noodles in front of me and this “fat chick” ain’t going to control herself.  I ate it all and LOVED it!  (And of course, I felt like passing out right after we got into the car. Damn Carbs!)

I knew I had plans to visit my friends that evening at the local Ale House.  Therefore, I think the reason for me being upset at the Thai Restaurant was because I had planned to eat healthy at lunch and bad at dinner.  So not the case here…. at all.  You’ll see why in a minute!

I downed my Herbal Tea and Water the rest of the day until it was time to prepare myself for my Ale House adventure.  6:30pm, I walked into the door and was greeted by my hubby and my friends at the Ale House.  After spending an entire day with a 62yo discussing Social Security benefits (Eck!)… I ordered a BEER…. then, an order of Spinach Dip with Chips… and then a Hamburger with Bacon, ‘Shrooms and Provolone on a WHITE bun with Yellow Mustard and a side of Sweet Potato Fries… and then, ANOTHER BEER!  O.M.G….. Call 9-1-1… Marcia is going into a FOOD COMA!  Thank GOD for my hubby being there and not ordering anything of his own.  He helped me tear apart my feast.  Thankfully.  The beers must’ve numbed me, because I didn’t even consider a dessert.  Or maybe I did…. it’s not the point here.  Or is it?  LOL!  Good Lord…

So, today… I wake up.  Massive Allergy Attack (I am only to assume it’s from the nastiness I ate yesterday) and step on the scale…. I swear it looked like this….

HELP Scale

I went up 1.4 pounds since YESTERDAY!!!

I’m not going to tell you my weight exactly.  Mainly because I am in a challenge and I don’t want to announce any weight standings till Sunday (as that is what everyone else is doing as well, it’s only fair that way).  Basically, I’m beating myself up today.  I feel like the scale and the hamburger are playing the “Rocky Theme Song” and dancing with each other!

I’ve decided to skip the Yoga class today.  Instead, I will head to the gym or take the pupster on a walk later this afternoon.  My 62yo has left the building for a few hours.  So, I think I will take in the moment and enjoy some FREE time on the couch and allow my nose to open up and the allergy med’s to take control.

My promise to myself though…  I will NOT repeat yesterday this week.  I will NOT allow myself to have another FOOD COMA this month.  I’m not saying that I will never have a Food Coma again.  I’m saying that I am not allowing myself to fall ass backwards into my old eating habits.  If, by chance, I have another day like this in the future.  No biggie!  As long as I go on the next day with healthy eating habits and good exercise… I’ll be proud of myself.  Bad Days happen to Good People.  I’m not going to let it define me.  But I still wish it would have turned out a little differently.

Here’s hoping that the scale is kind to me on Sunday!  And a little funny to take us out with.  Enjoy and have a GOOD day!

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My Cheat for the Week….

These truly are IMMACULATE!

 

Last day before my hubby returns back to work after being off since December 22nd.  I haven’t cooked one day since… so, I felt it necessary to cook him a nice breakfast.  Typically, I would have purchase a WHITE FLOUR version of cinnamon rolls, made them all and ate half of them — WITH ICING!  This time, I did things a little differently.  I took one slice of the roll, sprayed my waffle iron with non-cooking EVOO spray and layed it in there.  Two minutes later, I had a warm chocolate chip WAFFLE!  Yum!  I topped it off with some butter (literally a scrape and nothing more), lite maple syrup and added blackberries & strawberries on the top.  Also, I had to have my morning Yogurt too!  😉  When I was done making mine and his — I threw that damn can away!!  Who needs the rest??  We don’t!  And, I didn’t get to the bottom of the can where the icing was, so I had to get rid of the thing — QUICK!  I don’t feel guilty for this simple pleasure, things could have turned out so much worse.  But, like everything — consume in moderation and you will be fine.  Now, to do 50 squats….  Have a great day!

**Oh, did I mention I’ve lost 4.6 pounds this week?!  =)  Check out the update in progress.

 

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