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What’s Your Favorite Food?

On Monday night before going to bed, I sat there and thought to myself for a moment…. “I think I have an addiction…”.  My mind began wandering back to very early days in my childhood when I would be asked, “What’s Your Favorite Food, Marcia?”.  I never had an answer for anyone.  My mother would like to claim that my favorite food is Steak & Potatoes though.  (Love you Mom!)  As that is what she would typically end up telling people.

We’ve all had that question asked.  From MySpace & Facebook “All About Me” postings, surveys, questionnaires, etc.  But, let me ask you this.  Did you answer that question truthfully?  Or, did you just put something down that was tempting you at the moment?

Here’s what I was thinking before bed on Monday…..  I don’t have ONE specific food that I like.  I like THEM ALL!!  I like anything that tastes well, smells well, looks well and sits well.  I want it and I want it NOW!  That’s when it really hit me.  I am a FOOD ADDICT!

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I honestly have never been able to specify what my favorite food is.  I could tell you that I absolutely LOVE Mexican food (which I do), but honestly… I would eat the heck out of Cheesecake or Seafood just as passionately.  (Hmm… perhaps that’s a term I need to share with the therapist — Food = Passion.  Interesting what comes out here sometimes.)

Fast forward to Tuesday.  I’m on the computer scrolling through my Facebook posts like I typically do and there is a blog post from Ruby Gettinger (if you haven’t heard of Ruby — You need to go check her out!  She’s amazing!).  I click on it and start to read it.  It grabbed my attention as she starts to talk about how we become “Powerless to ______ ” (fill in the blank with whatever you feel powerless to).  Then, she encouraged me to take Step 2 and join her in getting some help.  I clicked on the link and was directed to The Recovery Room.

I really wasn’t sure what to think once I landed on the page for The Recovery Room, but something within me forced me to take the next step and e-mail the moderator to be added to the group.  I received my e-mail confirmation within a few minutes and before I knew it, I was attending a 3pm Overeaters Anonymous virtual meeting.

I decided early on in the session that I was not ready to “share” my story or talk about my issues.  So, I just hung back, listened and cheered on those who were so bravely sharing their trials and tribulations as Compulsive Eaters and Food Addicts.  My mind was racing and I swear the hair on my neck was standing straight up.  Every word that was typed across the screen from each member felt like it was coming straight out of my own mouth.  For once, I had found where I needed to be!

I have been telling my friends and family for several weeks now how I had this mental block that was preventing me from losing my weight and I just kept praying that I would eventually figure it out.  Am I going to have some remarkable weight-loss all of a sudden?  No, I’m not saying that.  What I am saying is that I have found a way to discuss my emotional and mental issues with the one thing that keeps me FAT besides my own self… FOOD!

Of course, this group doesn’t just sit and talk about food.  In fact, we aren’t even allowed to discuss a specific food or diet for fear that we may cause someone with an extreme food addiction to go into a rage of sorts.  We don’t want to be the reason to set them into a binge episode.  So, we just use very “vague” terms when discussing our food addictions.  Like, “I went to this specific restaurant and had a really hard time staying away from this specific meal that I had prepared myself to avoid”.  I loved how comforting and supportive everyone was within the group.  (Again, it’s all a virtual chat room.  So, it’s very easy to share, support and speak freely.  Especially when your screen name is “guest”.)

The most interesting thing I learned about OA is that they use the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book.  Yes, The 12 Step Program!  Because if you really think about it… it’s ADDICTION we are fighting!  The same “suggestions” (as the AABB is all suggestive and not a mandatory way of life) apply for ANY addict.  I’ve already downloaded my copy of the AABB and plan to read more of it throughout the next few weeks.  (It never occurred to me how similar a “binge drinker” and a “binge eater” were similar until I started reading…)

So all and all… I’m suggesting to YOU… my family, friends and fans.  If you are struggling with an addiction, a battle with yourself or are depressed about something that has happened in your life.  Get Help!  It does NOT make  you a weak person to admit when you need help.  In fact, it makes you STRONGER!  Come back ALIVE and LIVE the life you really want!  Get the help you need!  Because we want to see you around for a LONG time!

Sending you all ((hugs)) while you are tackling this journey to a healthy you and struggling with day-to-day battles within it.  I know personally that it is not easy, but we will make it through TOGETHER!  Stay Strong & Healthy!

 

About OA:

Overeaters Anonymous offers a program of recovery from compulsive eating using the Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of OA. Worldwide meetings and other tools provide a fellowship of experience, strength and hope where members respect one another’s anonymity. OA charges no dues or fees; it is self-supporting through member contributions.

OA is not just about weight loss, weight gain or maintenance, or obesity or diets. It addresses physical, emotional and spiritual well-being. It is not a religious organization and does not promote any particular diet.

OA members differ in many ways, but we are united by our common disease and the solution we have found in the OA program. We practice unity with diversity, and we welcome everyone who wants to stop eating compulsively. Welcome to Overeaters Anonymous. Welcome home.

 

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A Work in Progress

Yes, I’m still on my road to losing this pesky fat!  I’ve been extremely busy since about mid-February.  I went back to work after being off for nearly two years.  (I took a “mental break” after my last miscarriage)  I was on a roll losing my weight with being down nearly 15 pounds from Jan 2nd to Feb 13th.  I figured it was time to move on.  Boy was I wrong!  This damn scale of mine was resisting to budge for nearly three months.  It hit me this week that I just haven’t been making the time for ME as much as I should have.  However, I have jumped back on the bandwagon and I am hoping to get below the 220’s next week (I started at 248 in January)!  I created a six month goal for myself to be down 50 pounds by my 35th Birthday.  That’s drawing near — June 14th — Eeeek!!  Since I took my first photo of myself on January 19th, I figured I’d be a little lenient and go to June 19th to reach my goal.  Of course, I won’t be saddened if I reach it before then.  🙂

On May 7th, I will be giving up my reigns once again as Nanny.  I’m going to be concentrating on myself this summer and preparing my body to go through another round of infertility treatments.  (I haven’t shared it with most of my family and friends — so I apologize if you are reading this and are just now finding out)  I am going to tell you all this… I’m scared as hell nervous and anxious to begin the process.  Most of all, in my current state — I’m not ready!  My goal was to be below 200 pounds before even going to see the specialist.  Our appointment is May 20th.  I just told my husband (literally like 20 minutes ago) that I am rescheduling that appointment… once again!  This time, not because I am too frightened to begin treatment, but because I have a bigger goal in mind.  I want to be below that 200 lb mark!  I want to be a healthy pregnant momma!!  There’s nothing I have ever wanted more!  (Small Note:  I will NOT be posting on this blog, Twitter, or Facebook when/if I do treatments.  You will find out I’m pregnant when I feel I’m ready.  Not trying to be rude, but just protecting myself, my husband and so many other couples who go through the struggle of infertility every day of every year.  I will not be that person who keeps throwing it up in conversation just for conversation.  I have been there and I won’t be doing it!  So, you are still safe to hang around.  Long after the “fun” begins!  🙂 )

I have my Best Friends wedding on May 18th and when I return I will be kicking it in high gear till at least my birthday.  Then, I will see where I am.  (Hopefully below the 200 line!)  At that point, I will contact my specialist (Reproductive Endocrinologist) and go from there.  And hey, who knows!  Maybe I’ll just have a miracle pregnancy!  Psh!  Ha!  Ya, I’ve been saying that for 7 years folks.  (Read MY STORY to find out more)

Tomorrow morning I am joining my new friend and journey buddy (Geri) for Boot Camp.  Yes, I’m going back!  Well, this one is with a different trainer, but I need to have my ass pushed a little harder.  I have NO CHOICE!  Staying fat is not an option for me!  I’m also continuing with my weight-loss challenge group and have recently started a local “Women’s Fat Club”.  I am expecting a call on Tuesday afternoon from a Therapist who specializes in Food Addiction and Binge Eating.  We are hoping to have her come and speak with us ladies.  We also have a cooking class (at our local Diabetes Center), a field trip to see Ruby Gettinger and a Splash ‘N Dash Fun Run scheduled over the summer.  Strength in numbers folks!  I encourage you to grab a few friends and get yourselves moving this summer too!  Get out and enjoy your life!

Ok, now for the good stuff (blech!).  Here’s my progress photo’s….

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Not a whole lotta change yet (slightly here and slight there yes), but there will be soon!  You just wait and see!

**Do you have a progress photo, journey story, etc that you would like to share with my readers?  Let me know (by commenting below or contacting me via PM on Facebook) and I’ll post it on my blog for you!  I love to share others stories!  Be an inspiration to others and you will keep inspiring yourself.

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Don’t Give Up!

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Hey Y’all!  I hope you are having a GREAT week so far.  I’m getting myself back on track and NOT GIVING UP!  I spent the last few weeks surrounded by bad food, bad choices and bad people.  Now it’s time for ME!  I’ve got my week going pretty good so far.  Here’s what I have in store…

Today:  Dance Class

Tomorrow:  Do 3.1 miles at the gym and weights

Friday:  Yoga in AM.  At least 2mi walk at home in the PM.

Saturday:  At home/gym 5k and weights

Sunday:  Do “something” active with the hubby & pupster.  (Weather permitting, I’d like to go for a walk on the beach or do a local trail.)

What do you have planned for your workouts this week?  What roadblocks have you had along the way?

**My personal goal for this week is to be able to run at least a 1/2 mile non-stop.  I’ll keep you posted!

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13.8 GONE! — 85 More To Go!

As promised, I’m posting my before and after for month one below.  I’m not completely confident in my own skin yet and this is taking a huge amount of strength to post this to the world!  I can definitely see a difference, but it scares me.  Will I be happy with my “look” once I finally meet my goal weight?  I surely hope so!  So please, be kind to the “skinny girl in the making” below.  She’s on the right path and hopes this picture helps others in her shoes.  ((HUGS)) to all you trying to melt along with me!  We are well on our way!  Month ONE — DOWN!

Since January 2nd, I have lost 13.8 pounds.  It wasn’t easy, but I definitely have learned a LOT and gained a whole NEW lifestyle in just a short month’s time.  I’m so proud of myself for the strides I have made in “Making Marcia Melt”.

To prepare for February, I’ve already prepared my workout plan and have started on my meal plan.  I’ll post it in another posting later today.  Stay tuned!

In the meantime, enjoy my new bod!  Ha!!  =)  Can’t wait to see what this is going to look like in May when I reach my 1/2 way goal!!  Oh ya!!

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FYI, No Breakdown posting this week.  Instead, I’m going to go enjoy the Super Bowl with my hubby and pupster!  =)  I’ll post my calendar and my Healthy Super Bowl Spread later today though via Twitter & Facebook.

Who do you want to win the Super Bowl?  I’m in it for the commercials?  Let me know which was your favorite!

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As you learned in my Call 9-1-1….I have a FOOD COMA! post, this past week was not my best to date.  I had a couple of “cheat” moments that definitely lead me down a path of self-resentment for a few days.  Thankfully, I am back on track today!  Somewhat…. I’ll explain later.  For now, how about a little re-cap of last week?

Monday:  Boot Camp almost killed me this past week.  She made us RUN!  Did you hear me?  SHE MADE US RUN!!!  Ok, maybe she just made us run down the one side of the church to the dumpster and back — TWICE!  But still.  My body was screaming pretty loudly at 5:30am.  Sadly enough, I was also the slowest.  😦  I’m ok with that though.  I’m the big girl on campus…. for now!

Tuesday:  I took the day off.  Sat around in my PJ’s ALL DAY and played on my Kindle and watched TV.  It was great!  It was my first true “Pajama Day” since starting the new lifestyle.  Figured I owed it to myself (if only I had known what the rest of the week would have looked like).

Wednesday:  The day started off good with me waking up, loading up on apples and water and heading out for a Aerobic Dance class with our 62yo House Guest.  Boy, I was literally the YOUNGEST person in the gym filled with at least 50 over 50yo’s.  But hey, for $1, I’ll be going more often!  Well, after class is when the day went steadily downhill.  My driver (let’s call her “Canada” to protect her identity), she got a little turned around and we ended up in the wrong direction to her storage unit (we had a lot of errands this day).  So, our original plan to stop at a small soup and salad joint was busted.  We ended up walking into a Thai Restaurant instead.  Then, that night…. I had dinner with friends at the Ale House.  Again, see my Call 9-1-1….I have a FOOD COMA! post for more details.  I’ll just sum it up with this photo….

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Thursday:  Besides beating myself up.  Thursday was another lay low day and I ate pretty decent.  Looking back, I wished I would have gotten off my A** this day and worked out.  But, you live and you learn.

Friday:  Uh yes!  Finally, I talked myself out of my depressive state.  Ha!  I headed to the gym (as I really wanted to sleep in and not get kicked back down at Boot Camp) and ran Day 1 of Week 1 of the Couch 2 5K program.  I also did my arms on the weight machines.  To reward myself, I went out to our local farm and purchased some veggies and had a nice quiet lunch with me, myself and I.  It was WONDERFUL!  =)  This really helped to lift my spirits.

Saturday & Sunday:  I didn’t do much in the terms of “working out” this weekend.  However, I did manage to finally clean off my desk in our extra room.  That desk has been piled with the past for the last 6 months.  I finally went through it all and trashed most of it.  I am now sitting here at a nice clean desk and able to have MY own space back in the house.  I’m in LOVE!  On Sunday, hubby and I went to our local farmers market.  Didn’t get anything; as I got so much on Friday.  However, it was nice to scope out the prices and see what they have available for next time.  I’ll definitely be back.  Afterwards, we headed to the grocery store and then to pick Strawberries!  YUM!  I have enough strawberries to get me through the week with my smoothies and just general snacking.  I should have got more, but there’s always NEXT weekend!  🙂

TODAY:  Ok, I have another confession.  On Saturday night, I decided to enjoy a small slice of a loaf cake that “Canada” had purchased at Fresh Market.  It had been staring me in the face all week.  Let’s just say, my body is NOT happy with it!  I’ve needed to be near a bathroom for the last 24 hours. (Sorry, TMI, I know.  Deal with it!  I’m only HUMAN!) I guess there is the slight possibility it could be a stomach virus, but I don’t think so.  I’m starting to figure myself out.  So, I had to skip Boot Camp again.  It was the last day of my pass today too.  😦  It’s ok.  I made a pact with myself.  Get down another 20 lbs and we can sign up for another round.  I think I’ll need it once I hit a plateau anyhow.  (Yes, I do talk to myself.  Don’t judge!)  In the meantime, I am going to train for my first 5K.  My husband and I are going to WALK one on February 9th.  The first big RUN 5K will be April 7th.  I’ve got PLENTY of time.  If I can tackle the 5K, I may even upgrade to the 10K at the race.  🙂  So, my plan today was Boot Camp.  That got blotched, then I decided to do the gym C25K program, that got blotched… so I just stayed around the house and walked 1.51 miles with the puppy instead.  I went strong for the first mile.  The last half, I had to slow it down a bit as my stomach was starting to shine its awful face at me.

The upside to having a stomach issue — Down 1.8 pounds on the scale in 24hrs!  HOLY F###!!  Why couldn’t I have weighed in at that yesterday??  Errr.  Oh well, this weeks weigh-in should be pretty decent.  Watch out girls!  😉  Currently, I am down a total of 12.8 pounds since January 2nd!!!  WOOT WOOT!!!  Enter Happy Dance….

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I’m going to leave you with a little quote I got while at Tory Johnson’s Spark & Hustle Business Conference last year.  It’s one of my favorites and it will be my theme this week.  Feel free to take it for yourself too!  Have a fabulous one!

Do Not Let Your Fire Go Out,
Spark By Irreplaceable Spark…
The World You Desire Can Be Won.
It Exists…. It Is Real… It Is Possible…. It Is YOURS.
~ Ayn Rand

The Break Down (Week of 1/21/13)

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Phat Chances

These two sisters are absolutely amazing. A year ago, they packed their bags and headed for the biggest loser ranch for two weeks. Their transformation both physically & mentally over the year is really inspiring. http://www.phatchances.blogspot.com/

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